The Separation

Scene 1

She kept on saying that she didn't love me,

But her wide eyes told she was lying,

She was afraid of something from which I should also be,

Which I always kept on denying,

Her fear was true that's why she was running away,

I understood she was wiser than I always thought,

She told me being far was the only way,

I was afraid to be alone as she was the only one I got,

I know the fear of being away was inside her,

But she knew how not to show,

There was no way to be together,

It was the fact that I should already know.

Scene 2

It’s been three years since we last saw each other,

Her memories still haunt me whenever I'm alone,

Those moments swallow me that we spent together,

The feel of her hand shivers hand of my own,

I wonder if there was really something that touched me,

Then I realize that I was still in my memories with her,

The feel I got was literally of nothing,

But that nothing is the only thing that relates me with her.

Scene 3

I was going back home from my workplace,

It’s been nine years since I last saw her,

Her memories were still there but in small trace,

In my mind her beautiful face was still there,

I saw a beautiful woman may be of twenty nine,

Going with a little cute baby with her,

Seemed just like the girl who was once mine,

This again reminded the time we were together,

I called the name of the girl with whom I was once together, 

That woman turned around and I thought that she was her,

That woman came up to me asking who I was and how I knew the name of her twin sister,

I remember that she had an identical twin,

That woman was that twin she had,

I asked where her sister was living,

I wanted to meet her so bad,

I was shocked by what she told me,

Truth was she died after a long illness she had..

An Eternal Affair

She was crying for a reason,

I broke wedding promise,

Broke her trust felt like a politician but had shame,

She might never forgive me for what happened,

or maybe she will I’ll never know,

I always wanted her happiness,

but became a reason for her sorrow,

She was always true to me,

I felt like I cheated her but I couldn't help it,

I know she still cries about me leaving,

I just wish her to understand,

We swore to be together,

But i was partly the reason we fell apart,

I used to tell her nobody can take me away from her,

But how can i make her understand it wasn't my fault,

It all happened with a blink of an eye,

I was her's a moment ago,

But now I belong to somebody else,

Somebody who won’t ever let me go,

Somebody who will stick by me forever,

Somebody so true as truth itself,

She blamed ‘that’ somebody to be the cause of her pain,

But I disagree, its the time who made it happen,

I wish everything to be fine,

I sometimes wish to go back in time,

Time when I was in her arms,

Time I could hear her breathing

Time I could watch her sleep,

Time where time used to stop itself to make us feel closer,

Time when my soul had a body,

Time I had my health by my side,

Its not a physical being who tore me apart from her,

It was death itself who stole me away,

It was the death cloaked as illness for so long.

The Wait

Its just another night, just another checkpoint to breathe,

No aim to follow, no path to ride upon,

Its lonely as it get, silence is my only friend,

Noise also pay visit sometimes, but just noise,

Not the voices to hear or understand,

Noise of cells banging, screams begging for mercy,

Everyday I hear footsteps, expecting them to be the last,

I used to think death was hardest,

Now I know anticipation of death is even harder,

These walls seem to get narrower each day,

Seems each day air becomes less to breathe,

No idea about what day is it, does it even matter?

I guess not, still holding onto something helps,

All I think about is how it will end,

Does it hurt too much or death shows a little compassion,

Will it be like a sweet release of breath,

Or will I keep life clinched while death pulls me towards itself,

I am a sinner and never prayed in my entire life,

But here I am on my knees praying for the former to be true.

Lethal injection will end me